Author Blog | susanbliler

10/05/2004

Happy fall, y’all! Hope this message finds you all well. It’s been an extremely difficult past few months, but forward one must march.

I’m so excited summer is over. I seem to thrive in the winter, and I’ve got extra incentive this year. I’ve been invited to be a featured author at Book Lover Con in Las Vegas in May. Wanna join me at BLC25, you can get your tix at https://bookloverscon.com/las-vegas-2025 I’m hoping to get out at least 2 books before then. That being said, I want to thank you Stalkerz and Wolvez for sticking with me through my highs, my lows, and my writing droughts. You’re e-mails and messages of encouragement are what keep me writing, and I appreciate you all so much. Thank you for being patient as I traverse the grief of losing Mama. I’m going to make 2025 our year!

Ahwooooo!

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07/09/2024

This pain is unbearable and from this day forward, every second of every day is going to hurt worse than the second before until sometime in the very distant future. With agonizingly slow acceptance, those seconds will start to hurt less and less until finally, I’ll be able to breathe again without it feeling like there’s this gaping guilt-filled hole where the love for my mother used to be. There’ll be spikes of anguish. On Christmas mornings when I want to call and ask how much vanilla I should put in my whipped cream, or when I want to run to you with questions I can’t answer and I need guidance. There’ll be those moments when I’ll catch a whiff of Gloria Vanderbilt perfume or hear someone sneeze and swear it sounded just like mom. I’ll miss her tiny little hands and her big feisty spirit. I’ll miss her motherly over-protection and constant calls about how to work her smartphone. I’ll miss the buttery warm light that spilled from her windows at night. The glow of which ignited a companion flame within me that was the comfort of being home. The loss of her is going to be with me always. With us always. We’ll never be the same. We’ll never get over this. Our queen is dead. Grandfather, our mama comes to you swift and straight as an arrow shot into the sun. Welcome her. And as death for speed, we will be together again soon. We love you, mama wolf. You’re our moon. Ahwooooooooooooooo.

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02/8/24

FYI, Wix has done your girl dirty for the last time. I'm working on a new website with a different company. Stay tuned for updates.

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02/02/024

First off, I’m sorry. I left you all hanging for the past several months. Some of you follow me on Facebook and are aware of the situation I’ve been dealing with. For those who don’t follow me, my mother had a heart attack in July. It was scary and tense and then it turned epically worse. More chest pain led to the placement of a pacemaker, which set off a series of devastating events. Another heart attack ensued, and Mama was medevacked from Montana to Utah because her case was too difficult for the Montana hospital. I flew with her at super short notice on the tiny plane with basically the clothes on my back. The stay in Utah was horrific. She had what was supposed to be a bypass surgery, but she coded on the table. They brought her back after shocking her heart 18 times. Which then led to a condition called cardiogenic-shock. After the surgery, she didn’t wake up from the anesthesia after 5 hours of being off of it. The nurse told us she may never wake up. That night was agony on me and my older sister, Angie,--who flew from NC to MT then to UT to meet me. We called all of our siblings and held the phone up to Mama’s ear to let them say their goodbyes. Visiting hours in the UT ICU end at 9pm, but because of the surgery and mom’s condition, the nurses were willing to let my sister and I stay a little later. We begged and pleaded and prayed and by some miracle of God, Mama’s eyes opened around midnight. She was back! We were overcome, but it wasn’t to last. Shortly after waking, she developed a blood clot and had to go back in for what they said would be a “quick surgery”. My family and I were terrified. Mama had struggled to come out of the anesthesia from the first surgery and was going back under. Helpless, my sister and I sat in the waiting room and recited the rosary for hours. The two-hour surgery turned into five hours and the wait was absolute torture. I was fully expecting the doctors to come out and tell us mom hadn’t made it. Finally, they came in and told us they were able to remove the clot from an incision in mom’s leg. Stitched and stapled and bruised, Mama was sent to recovery. My sister and I would spend 25 days at Mama’s side in the hospital championing her. Exhausted and out of leave, I flew back to MT the same day my older brother flew to UT to stay with my older sister to help with Ma. We changed hotels 6 times, and rental cars more times than I can even remember. Eventually, mom was breathing on her own, food tube was removed, main line was removed, and she was finally cleared to return home.

On Nov 22, the day before Thanksgiving, Mama was flown back to MT. It's an absolute miracle.

As for writing, I’m finally back at it. I've gotten some great hours in on Adrik and he's damn close to being finished.

Thank you for sticking with me through it all, my Stalkerz!

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07/27/23

My Wolvez! How have you all been? Things in MT are heavy. If you follow me on FB, you know Mama Wolf had heart surgery a few days ago. She is staying with me for recovery and is doing well. Thank you to all who sent up prayers. My eldest sister, Angie, finds out more info on her breast cancer today. I got zero sleep last night and can’t imagine how she and her family got through the night. She came home for Mama’s surgery (against the doctor’s wishes) but she’s now back home in North Carolina. We’ve all been praying hard and putting positivity out into the universe. Fingers crossed, Wolvez, fingers crossed.

In writing news, I’m working on finishing up Titans: Adrik. I’ve also been working on Skin Walkers: Sha and have been debating putting another book out before Sha to clear up some of the things happening at StoneCrow post Jenny’s expulsion. Not sure if I want to include that in Sha…it might be too much going on. Still undecided. Thoughts? Oh…never mind. Dumb question, right? If you all have the choice between one Skin Walker book or two, I’m pretty sure I know the answer, LOL.

In some good news…well, good news for me, I’ve dropped a shift at the restaurant. Sooooooo, I’ve now got a three-day weekend which means I have one WHOLE day to dedicate to writing, which I would love to be my main focus. With luck, this will mean more books in faster sequence.

Thank you all for sticking with me this long. My Wolvez have always been there through ups and downs, dry spells, and everything, and I appreciate you for it. I love you, Stalkerazzi. - Alpha She